New Years Resoulutions...

So I hate New Years. A bunch of people making commitments that most won't keep just because it is asked of them. I like Spring much more. It is a time of new beginnings naturally. Plants begin to take new life, school finishes up, people come out of their season depression. It is really just a great time. This is my new year mark. A great time to start things fresh. So I will state my goals. I only do this publicly to make it more real to me.

Goal #1: Have my freshman year of college complete my Christmas

Goal #2: Find a place to call home, no more moving every 2 months

Goal #3: Make a monthly effort to find true love. I will not set a goal of when it will be found, but at least thinking about it monthly and trying to get there is better than sitting on my rump and hoping it will find me.

So yeah, thanks people for being a sounding board for my goals ;)

STAR TREK - True Confessions of Chris

So I have to tell the world, when I was younger I LOVED LOVED Star Trek. One of my lowest moments was at 14 when I went to an actual Star Trek Convention in LA. Then I grew up, matured, and let Star Trek be nothing more than a fading happy memory. Then one of my Favorite Directors J.J. Abrams directed the best Star Trek Movie ever and I saw it last night. So for one week I am having a celebration of Star Trek on my blog. I think everyone should see it because it is great!

Friendships

So, I am known amongst some, as one who axed friends from my life randomly. This is normally me coming to terms that some of my friends are not really friends so I delete them from my phone and facebook as a way of saying Ha! I ended this friendship, not you, even though they ended the friendship unofficially long before...Anyway, that got me thinking along with a movie I watched today. It made me want all my friends in my life to support me and like me for me even if what I do seems stupid in the moment. I do have friends like this, but I also have friends who could care less about anything.

So solution is, meet new people. Become involved with my surroundings and the social world around me. Otherwise, my friends may only be coworkers and parents of Autistic Children.

If I ever seem like a friend that doesn't give my all to support you in everything you are and want to be, let me know. I am going to work on this too.

Back to blogging

So, one thing you should know about me is that I don't like to talk about my thoughts when they are still vague to me. The last few months has been full of mini discoveries that led to one major one that really started my blogging adventure. Becoming me.

I am at one of the happiest times in my life. I have stopped being restricted by what others limits set by other. Others at church, at work, and friends. I for whatever random reason believed in myself as a kid. Up until about 10th grade I was always teased. I was put down and told so many times why I wasn't good enough. The weird thing was that I never believed it. I always tried to make the world a better place, and sometimes I succeeded. I gave thousands of hours to elementary school kids that had rough home lives, and for those few hours they saw me a day, they knew they were safe and cared about. I did peer counseling for hundreds of youth and created organizations to bring people together...All by my junior year of high school.

After High School for whatever reason work became my priority. I guess the first time I was told I could be making $35 -40,000 a year managing Cold Stone's, I became distracted. I became a people pleaser at work which carried over into friendships and everything else. Somehow Life fast forwarded 8 years and all my goals bit the dust.

The last year I have started remembering who I used to be and who I want to be...I guess I made the choice to be that person and great things are happening.

I start my B.S. in Human Services Program on Monday, I have a job I finally love and can see my self at forever, I don't feel like I have to be something other than myself for my friends. I am willing to walk away when I need to and stay when I want to.

Life is good. Here's to making the world a better place :)