I think I found me

Life is just a chance to grow a soul.

I have been on this quest to find myself. It will be ever lasting I am sure, but I feel so like I finally am living who I am supposed to be.

I have had multiple friends over the last few months as I am trying to make sure I am doing the things I need to, (i.e. going to events where I can meet people who share certain views and find potential

dates, taking time to not do anything, work when it needs to get done, and write), who have become frustrated with me. I will most likely always be a people pleaser but it is so nice to still hold on to my course rather than changing out of guilt.

One of the truths I am learning about me is that my life changes based on where I am at and what is going on around me. Almost every friend I have in my life is someone that was I spent much time with at one point or another. Normally this only lasts for a few months at a time then we go months with out hanging out. Not really something I or they choose, but the way it works. I always care for my friends even when I have gone years between talking to them.

The other truth I will post about me is that I have been keeping some of my big growth milestones on another blog. It alone has around 20 posts I think in the last month. If anyone wants the blog, send me an email and I would love to share a little more.

Lost Friends...

So, it has been a birthday heavy week for me on facebook. There was a time where anyone that I considered a friend I would try to spend their birthday with them. Now my 100 some odd friends on facebook simply get a "Happy Birthday" once a year. It is weird that almost all of these people at one time or another were close friends. Now. They are just Facebook friends that get a simple yearly wish. I guess that's why I try to look at facebook as more of a directory of sorts. Just a place to say happy birthday and always a place to have contact info just in case. I am learning that people are only in your life for a time so learn as much about them and from them while you can. Someday you may find them lost.

Moving to Logan

So over the last 6 months I have had the itch to get out of Utah. I felt like my life has spun a little out of control as far as balance. It has been good, but I just felt like I needed to hit the refresh button or restart. Over the last few months job offers have come and gone, but I really like where I work, so I turned them all down. The last few weeks I have been consumed with trying to help everyone I work with all the time, and really started looking at the options of changing jobs just to keep me in check. Again, not something I wanted, but needed. A couple weeks ago I heard that a position for my company opened in Logan. I do love Logan and felt so much peace about it. It felt like home just thinking about it. I was not sure if I would be able to go to Logan and stay in the same pay bracket I am in etc, etc, so I took a job offer in Salt Lake with another company. It would not have been my first choice, but it would have got the job done. When talking to some amazing people at my work, and with their ability to transfer me, I am glad to be staying with the same company. Some really good benefits... I still will be in Salt Lake area a couple days a week for school and friends I will be able to keep some involvement in the programs I started in Davis County I will have a chance to retreat to for a time to recharge and refocus with out much distraction. I don't have to start fresh at a new company. So all in all, life is good. I will move in the next few weeks and hope to find some place cheap so if anyone knows of anything, please let me know. I love you all, thanks for your support! Chris